Love. whywhatwho?

im thinking alot about love lately.
here is a letter i wrote to grace. kinda just talking myself through stuff :) it shares some of my opinions, and struggles with and about love.



tonights lesson was on Love.
and all of its meanings.

1what is love?
2who is love?
3why is it so complex?

answer

1God is love.
2God is love.
3God is love, there fore love is confusing and complicated.

we cannot grasp God, thereofore we cannot grasp love.
we can wrap our feeble minds around one, maybe two meanings of love, we maybe can pull some examples out of our heads. but to fully grasp it? to understand it?

never


there are two flavors of love

1human love
2Godly love

human love we invented. we made it. by being humans, we understand it because it was made by us, the concepts where designed by humans.

but Godly love? not even close. its so all inclusive and vast, we cant begin to get a handle on it, let alone show it to eachother.

but
we can feel it. we feel it all the time. and like we both have said about saying "i love you" to eachother
we become imune.

it doesnt mean quite so much.

it isnt new and exiting.

amazing? heck yes! but we become immune.
that feeling people get when they first accept Christ into their lives? why dont we as Christians feel it the same way right now?

the feeling the first time you told me you loved me? why dont i feel it the same way when you say it now?


the law of diminishing returns???
i dont think so.

i think its the law phenomenon of chincy humans. we are selfish, and weak, and self serving. it means just as much as it did then! but we dont feel it as much.

i dont think the frequency of i love yous makes any difference.

i think the emotions, and the feelings behind both people are what make the differnece.

saying it more should only make it MORE meaningfull!
but it doesnt....
experiencing Gods love 24/7, instead of for the first time should make it better! more fulfilling.
but it doesnt....

why?

because we are humans. and we respond to a concept that we cant respond to the best we can. we try and take something as pure, and amazingly beautiful as true love. and understand it or experience it, instead of fearing it.


look what we did to sex
to money

our culture is doing/has done the same thing to love.
and i dont like it.
but i too am human. and so are you grace marie russell.

we cannot understand it, we cannot grasp it.
but i know its there. love is lurking just around the corner. we are always knowing, always experiencing... something. a nameless faceless... something.
but we can never catch it, never find it out. we can catch a glance, a feeling. we can find our earthly interpertation of love. but we can never understand the real love. the God-like love.

at least not until we get to heaven.
when we will see it, we will experience it. we will love like Christ loves us. and we will know for a fact, that THIS is true love.