Friday, September 28, 2007

Privilege




How absurd men are! They never use the liberties they have, they demand those they do not have. They have freedom of thought, they demand freedom of speech. - Soren Kierkegaard


Soren Kierkegaard said that in the early 1800's, when freedom of speach didnt exist yet :) but what a quote... what a mindset. as people, we are never satisfied, never fulfilled, never happy. things like SuperSize, premium gas, energy drinks, supermodels, carpool lanes, Martha Stewert. we somehow seem to forget that we can function on so much less than we do, we can go a week without sleep easy, but if we miss our latte enema every morning we cant function right. there is nothing wrong with living our normals lives, with driving in the carpool lane, with drinking redbull, with getting the venti. but we need to remember that it isnt a right to have it so easy, its a privilege.




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Listening to: Something Corporate - Ruthless

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Listening to: Something Corporate - Drunk Girl

Sunday, September 16, 2007

Pleasures Are Meaningless.



I thought in my heart, "Come now, I will test you with pleasure to find out what is good." But that also proved to be meaningless. "Laughter," I said, "is foolish. And what does pleasure accomplish?" I tried cheering myself with wine, and embracing folly—my mind still guiding me with wisdom. I wanted to see what was worthwhile for men to do under heaven during the few days of their lives.

I undertook great projects: I built houses for myself and planted vineyards. I made gardens and parks and planted all kinds of fruit trees in them. I made reservoirs to water groves of flourishing trees. I bought male and female slaves and had other slaves who were born in my house. I also owned more herds and flocks than anyone in Jerusalem before me. I amassed silver and gold for myself, and the treasure of kings and provinces. I acquired men and women singers, and a harem [a] as well—the delights of the heart of man. I became greater by far than anyone in Jerusalem before me. In all this my wisdom stayed with me.

I denied myself nothing my eyes desired;
I refused my heart no pleasure.
My heart took delight in all my work,
and this was the reward for all my labor.

Yet when I surveyed all that my hands had done
and what I had toiled to achieve,
everything was meaningless, a chasing after the wind;
nothing was gained under the sun.
Wisdom and Folly Are Meaningless
Then I turned my thoughts to consider wisdom,
and also madness and folly.
What more can the king's successor do
than what has already been done?

I saw that wisdom is better than folly,
just as light is better than darkness.

The wise man has eyes in his head,
while the fool walks in the darkness;
but I came to realize
that the same fate overtakes them both.

Then I thought in my heart,
"The fate of the fool will overtake me also.
What then do I gain by being wise?"
I said in my heart,
"This too is meaningless."

For the wise man, like the fool, will not be long remembered;
in days to come both will be forgotten.
Like the fool, the wise man too must die!
Toil Is Meaningless
So I hated life, because the work that is done under the sun was grievous to me. All of it is meaningless, a chasing after the wind. I hated all the things I had toiled for under the sun, because I must leave them to the one who comes after me. And who knows whether he will be a wise man or a fool? Yet he will have control over all the work into which I have poured my effort and skill under the sun. This too is meaningless. So my heart began to despair over all my toilsome labor under the sun. For a man may do his work with wisdom, knowledge and skill, and then he must leave all he owns to someone who has not worked for it. This too is meaningless and a great misfortune. What does a man get for all the toil and anxious striving with which he labors under the sun? All his days his work is pain and grief; even at night his mind does not rest. This too is meaningless.

A man can do nothing better than to eat and drink and find satisfaction in his work. This too, I see, is from the hand of God, for without him, who can eat or find enjoyment? To the man who pleases him, God gives wisdom, knowledge and happiness, but to the sinner he gives the task of gathering and storing up wealth to hand it over to the one who pleases God. This too is meaningless, a chasing after the wind.

Ecclesiastes 2.
most amazing chapter in the bible.

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Listening to: Red - Already Over

Saturday, September 15, 2007

Patience. Diligence.



im so tired of it all. im especially tired of being half bad-ass. (i decided thats what im being.) my greatest influences are people i dont want to be like. the traits i hate the most are visible in the people who im with the most. and are therefore starting to show up in MY life.
what am i thinking?
im tired of being irresponsible. being a kid is great. but honestly?, im not one anymore.
im tired of being selfish. there are so many people i love, and currently im number one.
im tired of caring. about what people that i dont care about - think about me.

some very large part about me wants to be the guy in the picture, from the movie Knocked Up. someone who lives with some guys, has no money but doesnt care, watches movies all day, does... nothing really. just lives, and doesnt care about other things, he doesnt have a purpose.
it sounds amazing.
but, by the end of this movie he is thrust into the hardest, most commited situation ever. where he has to provide for a family, that he didnt even want. but he does. he quits smoking pot, he stops hanging out with his friends. he actuly gets a job, and does an awesome job!
i guess in this sense i respect his character. the transformation between nothing, and being a responsible man.

im fed up with the stuff i do. im done being a half badass, half man, half kid, mixture. but its so impossibly hard to just change, i want a catalyst. but thats not the right way.
i refuse to be like my 20 year old friends though. i will not be working a dead-end job (or no job), living at home, no real responsibilities. as much as i dont, i want to skip over what they are all doing. and i want to go right to being the MAN that God made me. but maybe just maybe, the man that God made me, is actually a irresponsible kid. for now. and its part motivation, part acceptance, and part patience.


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Listening to: Haste The Day - Servant ties

Friday, September 7, 2007

The "Not So Purpose Driven life"


why so much emphasis on purpose?
why do we all need to know everything.
the biggest questions ever are...
Who am I?
Where did I come from?
Why am I here?
Where am I going?

in fact The Used put it at the begging of one of their songs!
"Take It Away"
Life's greatest questions have always been: Who am I? Where did I come from? Why am I here? Where am I going? You are about to see and hear one of the most significant messages given to us from God.

Listen!

the answers to these questions is simple! its God! (to all of them)
but us as humans, as Christians, we seek purpose.
in our jobs, in ourselves, in our friends, in our lives.
but do we not realize that we have purpose?
tonight was Phinehas's last show with their guitarist mike. at the last song, his last song with the band, he was laying on the ground, screaming out to God, thanking him for his experiences with Phinehas, for the fans, but more importantly, thanking God for a purpose, for Him... have you ever thanked God for God? cuz He made Him :)
it was touching. i know touching is a weird word to use about a hardcore show... but these guys are SO sold out for God! its amazing. after crying out to on the concrete, mike started singing Be Thou My Vision, and the crowd joined in. they where saying between songs, its not about the music. (ya, screw you Hot-Topic!) they said if you go to our myspace, dont listen to our songs. read our lyrics. they knew what their purpose is. its not to make cool music, its not to sell out, its not to have tons of fans. its to glorify God and God alone.
so often we get caught up in finding purpose in life, that we lose sight of our purpose in life. we are driven to find goals, missions, challenges. but the only goal we need, our mission in life, our great challenge is to be Gods. you may say "thats no challenge..." try it :) its harder than you might think.

being a sellout for God is not an easy task
but who said goals should be attainable?

one thing that Sean (the lead singer) said tonight between two songs,
was
"If your seeking anything other than God, its in vain."



what are you seeking?